Episode 09

[Holly Hoffman]

Wowee. What's the fall out from such an explosive tribal council?

Where do you go from here? How have your plans changed?

Now that one idol has been played, are you scared of potentially more idols being played?

[Sarah]

BOOM. HUGE NEWS. PATRICIA'S A FUCKING SNAKE. SHE HAS AN ALLIANCE WITH SEAN. ONE WITH GABE AND I. AND ONE WITH LINDSEY. WHAT THE FUCK.

[Holly Hoffman]

Let me know how this came up? What do you plan on doing about it?

[Sarah]

yo yo yo I'm the most explosive character in this game. yo yo yo.

So, I was talking to Lindsey and in passing she mentioned to me that she had been in an alliance with Patricia and considered Patricia her closest ally. I sat there for a moment thinking... Hey... That can't be right. Patricia was in an alliance with me and Gabe... But then I realized that we had a fucking rat. So I mentioned it to Lindsey and we started to thinking about how the whole vote bullshit got back to Sean. It made perfect sense. Patricia had to be a rat. It only got out once Patricia came online. She protected him the past few rounds. I went to Sean and he confirmed that he was with her. Now we have a huge fucking rat infestation and my plan is to exterminate it. >:)

[Mia Galeotalanza]

Please keep us filled in on this. Like, please.

[Sarah]

I like me better than anyone else.

[Sarah]

ugh I hate the idea that when this is over for me, this experience will be done for good. I don't like accepting that. I'm fine with being voted out, I'm not fine with losing the potential I have of playing again.

[Holly Hoffman]

Don't think too much about the whole "playing again" aspect of things. Not only does Jeff run All Star seasons reasonably regularly, he also has a few seasons with returning players against new players (as was the case with last season, Patagonia that I played). There's definitely going to be opportunities for everyone to play again. Just keep playing the game how you want to play. I think winners are guarantees for All Stars though

[Sarah]

I mean, it's not like that to me really. I want to play the game but I'm so expendable to these people. They don't even care about making big moves. All they want to do is sit idly by and take out the people who aren't against them. At this point I'm not playing Stranded, I feel. I feel like I'm on some daytime gameshow and it's all or nothing all the time. Like, the realist in me says to give up. There's no way I can make an immunity run to get to the FTC. But there's the optimist that honestly believes I can do it. There's no way I'm going to let these people break me. I'm not going to give anyone the satisfaction of making me crack. I'm going to fight until I see my name in black/dark-ass purple. I made it this far, I can make it to the end. I know I can. Maybe it's unrealistic but I'm here to prove that nothing is impossible.

[Sarah]

Ugh right now my main priority is just getting to the Final Tribal Council at any cost. There's no doubt in my mind that if I can get there, I'll win. I'll have had one of the hardest roads to the FTC ever and I would have had to fought for my right to stay in the game every single round. If I'm still there, I'm going to win.

I'm trying to find the idol right now but nothing works. I've tried these

lasayona
sayona
theexecutioner
executioner
theexecution
execution
melissa
maria
donamarina
lallorona
llorona
weeper
weeping
crier
theweepingwoman
theweeper
thecrier
lloronasayona
aymishijos
melissa
melissayona
melissasayona
sayon
lasayon
thesayona
thesayon
givethatbitchacigarette

nothing is working :(

[Jeff Probst]

So, now that you have had the night to decompress. How are you feeling today going forward? Have some doors been open that maybe weren't a possibility before TC?

[Sarah]

I feel like I definitely have a lot more options for the next few tribals. Last night really brought out a few new targets.

Ugh but this idol.... These clues are tough

[Brenda Lowe]

Only catching up now, but good job gurl! Who needs back-up plans?

Or do you? How safe are you without immunity? How is this news about Patricia being received?

Last round you had a lot of comments about how alone you felt. You seem to have some people opening up to you by your posts, who do you feel closest to out here? Who are you just never going to gel with?

[Sarah]

I'm going to try winning immunity again. Like I don't care. :P

[Sarah]

I can proudly say that in three years of ORGs, this is the most intense and emotionally draining game I have ever experienced. This game from day one has genuinely felt like I'm on Survivor. It's surreal.

[Brenda Lowe]

For some reason I had it in my head that you were a first timer.

But really, what plans if you don't win immunity? You have to have something on the back-burner here no? Or do you genuinely feel you can win every single challenge from now till endgame?

[Sarah]

So Lindsey came up with the plan to make the other side think the vote's on lex when it's really on Vee with five votes. Linda's close to Lex, surely she could be convinced to idol him. If she thinks five votes are being negated, it means in her mind majority would be 3 votes... So I just need to convince ONE person not to vote for me and I'm safe.

[Sarah]

Mia can you tell Frank I said I love him.

[Sarah]

At this point I'm trying to play up this whole scared little girl angle to Vecepia/Sean/Linda/Lex/Fatricia to try and maybe shake any ideas they might have that this is the Sarah Show. I really have a lot of damage control to do and a lot of ground to try and cover. I'm trying to slowly make the evolution from Cacique to solid player which is mainly the reason I've tried to win the immunity challenges,

[Sarah]

No one's telling me I'm being voted out but I know it's coming. Once again Sarah doesn't get the night off. I have new found respect for Buffy now. Of course I'm not kicking vampire ass but I definitely feel like this game is my job. I never get a night off. If I don't show up one night, it's game over for me and I don't want that. Like I've always said here, it's win or lose and it always comes down to the challenges for me. I wish I could be cocky and not have to worry about winning immunities but there's no one here to help me out. It's Sarah versus the world here but I don't fucking care if the odds are against me. I'll go down swinging and I'll leave kicking and screaming.