by Gabriel » Sun Jul 14, 2013 9:14:32 pm
Hi, jury!
This is seriously so surreal. I think we've all played a game that we'll never forget, and even though you guys are there and I'm here, we can mutually say this experience has been great. We've all had ups and downs, every one of us, and I know that a lot of you might be upset at any decisions I've made, but I just want to clarify why I made those and then we can go from there. This might all seem like a big Scooby Doo reveal or something, but hopefully after explaining everything, you'll see why it needed to be.
I'd like to start off by saying that every single tribal council I went to, I voted in the majority. I think that's a testament to me knowing what was going on in the game at all times, despite me acting like I didn't. The result of tribal council was usually dependent on Patricia and I's vote. My focus was to stay in a really risky spot in the middle of two alliances, so that I could decide who I wanted gone and run with it. The whole time we were juggling two alliances, I tried to maintain trust with each of them, and I think I was pretty successful in that.
In the beginning of the game, my goal was to stay social. My application said it, I said it in my confessionals, everything. All I wanted to do was to be well liked by the tribe and remain a good competitor. I think I was okay at that. On day 1, I got alliance offers from a ton of people. John, Peter, Sean, Patricia, Gina, Sarah, Vecepia, General... Really, most of the tribe liked me, if not all, so I was successful in that. Nothing really major happened premerge. Getting to the merge wasn't too much of a challenge.
The real struggle began at the merge. Kim J's boot was something that wasn't worth freaking out about. She wasn't an advocate to keep me, she seemed to be like a big threat, and everyone seemed to want her out. It wasn't a big deal. The big deals came with boots like Clarence, Vecepia, and Kim P. Patricia and I flipped on each of the votes and gave excellent reasons after to maintain trust. We were in a spot where everyone wanted us in and we could decide what we wanted to do. That was, until Patricia's name got bigger and bigger and she became someone that needed to leave. I'd been using her as a shield while I maintained power, and at the final 7, I booted her.
I used her as a way to get me further, but still have power, and then I got rid of her when I knew that I could play by myself and still have power. It was incredibly hard to get rid of her, but something that I repeatedly told Lindsey and Linda was to play smart, not with your heart, and that's what I was doing then. I knew it was something that I could own up to doing and then prove to people that I could play by myself.
I tried to create this idea that I was weak while maintaining the power to make big decisions, execute them, and still be fine afterwards. It was my idea to have Linda and Lindsey in the final 3, I was the one that brought up Lindsey voting out Gina, I was the one that broke off my final 3 with Linda and Lex for greener grasses, and I got here by myself. I honestly think every move I made in this game was in my best interest, I just made it seem like it wasn't for a bit. Call it a Scooby-Doo reveal or whatever you want, but I couldn't exactly tell everyone that I was playing everyone by being in the middle of two alliances.
I hope that I didn't offend anyone by voting them out. Especially Patricia, Lex, and Sarah. Sarah, I hope I didn't offend you because what I did was in the best interest for my game. Same with Patricia, and Lex. Yes, Sarah, we didn't have the best relationship when it got to you leaving, but what I did was absolutely nothing personal. You were a very strong player, and if I wanted any shot at winning, I couldn't have you there. I couldn't have Sean, Patricia, Lex, or Gina there either. There were points in this game where my legs wobbled when I stood up because I was so into all of it, and I'd hate for people to be mad at me for something that I did to get me to where I am.
In a wrap up, yes, I was under the radar, but that was my goal. Some people play under the radar because they don't have the skill to play and be really visible, but I knew in this game, with big personalities, that they'd get targetted. See: Patricia. See: Sean. See: Sarah. See: Lex. They all were great players but they were too visible. I have confidence that I'm a great player as well, I just was smart enough to know that I couldn't be too out there. I needed to make sure I communicated regularly with people but didn't make waves. And that's exactly what I did. I went this entire game with 1 vote cast against me, and it was at the final 4. Linda and Lindsey both received multiple votes, if I'm not mistaken. I played well enough to maintain power, never be in anyone's sights to the point where I was a target at tribal council (until the final 4), and I picked the final 3. I was the one that messaged Lindsey and told her that I wanted to have her and Linda in the finals. I was the one that told her she needed to boot Gina off, and I got myself to the finals.
I'm looking forward to all of your questions, and hopefully I don't get drilled too much.